Tears of Stress

JULY 18, 2013

Stress + Waist Cincher = Bucket of Tears

I had my second breakdown at work. I was so stressed out and I just couldn't take it anymore. I spoke to my supervisor Brandon and asked him if it was okay to do emails because I wasn't about to request to be sent home. No matter how bad I felt, I had a job to do and I enjoyed my job for the most part. He sensed that it was something serious, so he led me to the office and asked me what was going on.

I was basically extremely stressed out because people behind me were mostly chatting away the workday while literally hundreds of customers are waiting on hold for 45 minutes for their turn to be assisted. There I was trying my best to focus and help as many customers as I could, but the stress of the situation finally got to me. I've been harboring it for the past week and my plate just exploded today. I was quite a mess. Thank God for makeup.

I guess I need to try harder to focus on my job and being the best temp employee I can be. But sometimes, even the best resolve can be broken down, and today was that day. A person can only take so much while trying to bottle it up inside.

Another supervisor pulled me aside a few hours later to talk to me about the situation again. He told me that I am free to go straight to the higher ups if it's something that is a great concern in my opinion. We do have an open-door policy, so I am allowed to do just that. I just don't want it to reach that point. I don't want to be starting drama at work. I already got someone reprimanded for sexual harassment, I wasn't about to add to that list. I don't want to be the employee that gets people in trouble - even if they fully deserve it.

*sigh* Anyway. I was able to talk to my roommate about it for a little bit, and another co-worker for a little bit. This would be the time when I would wish I had a partner to confide in. Oh well, I'm fine by myself. Less to worry about. Seriously, I need to start getting some more metaphorical sunshine soon. Otherwise, I'd end up with premature wrinkles! Yikes!