Stress Haul

JULY 31, 2013I found that when I'm stressed, I shop. So, today was my day off and I ran some errands as usual. One of those errands was an oil change at Walmart. Of course, that meant I would be walking around the store for about an hour... The nail polish rack for Sinful Colors caught my eye, and when I saw the price $1.98, I immediately decided that I was going to look for a nice color. I recently developed the urge to wear mint colors, so I knew...

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More Stress

JULY 29, 2013To think that I'm getting back to smiling again and enjoying my job is too much to ask for. Sadly, nothing's changed. One issue quiets down and another arises.The guy who was reprimanded on my behalf isn't there anymore. Not sure if he was suspended or just gone for good. One less hazard to worry about.The people chatting behind me also quieted down a little bit. There's still some, but not as bad as before. However, the ones a couple cubicles down started their own chatterbox. Every night, as soon as the designated lead for our row...

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Los Angeles Spotlight: Venice Beach

JULY 28, 2013Today was so much fun! Me and my friends went to Summerfest and we really enjoyed it! My feet are hurting so much, but it was worth it! Check out the photos we to...

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Assertiveness

JULY 25, 2013If you've been reading this blog, you know how stressed out I've been for the past week or two. Today was the first real day that I've felt the weight lifted off my shoulder. Let's start with what I did last night.I finally decided that I will talk to the Customer Service Manager. He's the second highest boss in the department. I jotted down ideas so that I can present them to him and make it seem that I really thought about them.This afternoon, while I was on my way to work, I was thinking of key words I would say to him when I finally...

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Best Wishes

Stalker Status.I just found out my ex finally got married ten days ago. How do I feel about it? I'm not quite sure. I'm in such a vulnerable state right now, anything could set me off. I'm happy for him though. I'm glad he's settled down with someone he loves. I'm glad he found the one that will make him happy.As for me? I'll keep on living and following my dreams. You know what's weird, though? Five days before his wedding, he had a dream about...

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Cloud Over Sunshine

JULY 22, 2013I went into work today feeling very defensive. I had such a thick wall around me, I felt like I was isolated and alone among a crowd. I did my job while I froze my heart. I spoke to my customers completely detached. Feeling nothing was a little bit refreshing. When I stopped caring, I stopped hurting. I also kept hoping and praying that the customers will be tolerable and decent so that I won't go over the deep end again. Thank the Lord...

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Emotionally Unstable

JULY 19, 2013Almost had another breakdown at work today. I thought I was having a good day - finally - but then one jerk of a customer made me feel like lashing out and just letting all of my frustrations out. I'm getting a little teary just writing this post.I'm just so tired right now, I feel like I just need to take a break. But I'm also scared - scared that I'd lose my job because I can't handle the pressure. Is that really what it is though? Am I not able to handle the pressure? Or is it the fact that I've been working 6 days a week for the...

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Tears of Stress

JULY 18, 2013Stress + Waist Cincher = Bucket of TearsI had my second breakdown at work. I was so stressed out and I just couldn't take it anymore. I spoke to my supervisor Brandon and asked him if it was okay to do emails because I wasn't about to request to be sent home. No matter how bad I felt, I had a job to do and I enjoyed my job for the most part. He sensed that it was something serious, so he led me to the office and asked me what was going on.I was basically extremely stressed out because people behind me were mostly chatting away the...

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Shopping: Cali Girl + Ross

JULY 17, 2013So...I went shopping...again...I'm in so much debt by now, but new things just give you that high, you know? Anyway, let's see what I got.Cali Girl - local fashion store where I live.I was looking for a white tee for "Top Model" day on Friday at work. I finally found one, but I also found something else. Something incredibly beautiful.I tried to buy new shoes to match this dress. I found a couple cute ones, but they didn't work for me....

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Raining in my Dreams

JUNE 16, 2013My body likes to wake up at 7am each morning, and then I go back to sleep for a couple more hours. This is when I have my most vivid dreams. This morning, I had a dream about my ex. Of course, I'm not going to tell him that I had a dream about him. I know better than to start something I don't want to finish.Anyway, the dream was that we were in some kind of competition together. Our relationship was close. Along the dream, I had a nagging feeling that I needed to tell him something. So, I asked him to come outside with me so we can...

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Heart in Pieces

JUNE 15, 2013It sucks when people you don't even know say mean things to you, thinking it was just a silly joke. It's not a joke anymore when it hits a nerve.Some guy from work told me I had no heart. Who was he to say that? He had no right. I may make self-deprecating jokes, but that's not an indication that anyone is free to insult me. Sometimes I make jokes to make light of things. Jokes have the slightest truth in them, after all. But telling...

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Too Faced & Essie Haul

JUNE 14, 2013Hi everyone!I visited my family today, and of course, it turned into yet another shopping trip! This time, we went to the military base. I loved it there! There was no tax and the prices were discounted! Who could say no to discounted beauty products?!!! I originally planned to buy a white shirt for spirit week at work, but I didn't like the ones I found and just ended up buying makeup. *sigh* I know... Anyway, check them out!Too Faced...

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